gapenting

i'm tired of people telling me what to do, and trying to live up and everyone's expectations

hello ..... look at my face ------------> -_-

tonight , i feel soo lonely. i think no ones understand me. I think my life is hard, but when i'm with my BF , i feel the opposite.

i want to tell you about my hystoris haha. but i'm afraid , if my family read it. sooo........... I have to undo my intention.

I want to erupt right now, like a fire mount (?)

I feel every part of my life has changed, and I can't take it.

start from the boy who I like from 4 years ago....

and....................... he really didn't care to me. I know it since weeks ago. I shouldn't said that.. but it's okay. cause i told him that I was love him... I told that "was"...

but he answered "it's okay". just that. it wasn't fair, even i denied every boy who loved me , just for wait for him haha,,, yeaaaaaaaaah he didn't know, even i was not closed to him.

okayyy... i think , it's can I call this with "galau".

it's for the first time. he is my first love :( but....................................sooooooo toughluck.

he is the only one until weeks ago. now i feel soo broken heart, I try to love someone else, but i don't want.. cause know that's hurt.......

i don't want to be the kind of girl who like that.. who chase a boy.. that's why i wasn't closed to him.. haha

i must to forget him, yeah that's my basic intention.. i know that he don't love the type girl like me, and i know that he don't love me.... that's why i told him .. to see his word..

okay my galau just add from my family........ haaaaaaaaaaaa enough that's private........... bubbyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee